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Junior Year Fall Update

Well, things have certainly changed since I last updated this blog; I believe it was in sophomore year. I am wrapping up the Fall 2015 semester, and would like to just share a few things I’ve learned.

This semester, I took:

  • Junior Field
  • Advanced Elementary Spanish
  • Introduction to Sociology
  • Intergenerational Justice
  • Quantitative Research in Social Work
  • Human Behavior and the Social Environment

I love most of my classes. I have learned a lot this semester. But I have also come to understand a lot about the world surrounding me, and that people don’t and won’t always live up to my exceedingly high expectations of them. This is a good and a bad thing. For one, I have this new understanding of people, and as I am going into a “people field,” this will help inform me on my journey. On the other hand, I find myself changing in ways I swore I wouldn’t. I realize that I now expect less of people. This saddens me, because my sense of empathy and care for others (even complete strangers) is a personal value that I hold of the utmost importance. I swore I wouldn’t change this, and yet I am finding that more and more often I need to make a conscious choice between caring for others and caring for myself.

Through counseling, meditation, and internal reflection, I have also learned about myself and my response to external forces in my life. I am beginning to understand the role procrastination (ugh) has played in my education and academic performance, and the best ways to combat that. I’m procrastinating many things by writing this right now, but I realize that if I don’t express my feelings in some way that I will lose focus later on, and in turn, lose my ability to perform as well as I can. Prior to this year, I didn’t understand the “why” behind my procrastination and saw it as a personal fault. Now, I can celebrate that I’m a creative being with so many ideas and thoughts in my brain. I no longer have an intense desire to do destructive things (I’ll leave it at that). I have realized how much I offer to the world, and how much of an impact I can have on others.

love sweater

This semester has been the hardest semester. I’m 5/8 through my undergraduate degree and now that we have all been formally admitted into the Social Work program, we’re getting smacked in the face with theory and data analysis. Like I said before, I’m learning so much. I’m watching my friends grow and blossom into super-human world-changers and I’m making lifelong friendships that I value even now.

I can respect myself for my feelings and my intentions, and I love that! I know that if I want to do something, it’s for a good reason. Maybe this is what’s it’s like to be an adult? Many people my age believe that being an adult means independence, but I think it means being able to admit to yourself that you don’t know everything and that your friends and family are there to support you on your journey of not-knowing.

I have enjoyed the process of learning to love myself first. It’s pretty awesome, I highly recommend it to everyone! I surround myself with things and people that I love, and I have been taking time to myself to plan for my future. This can be scary. But I have always had thoughts floating around about what I want in my life, but I haven’t been able to decide because I (like everyone) am a multifaceted being. I am not just one thing. I am many great things, and to truly be happy I need to honor all parts of my being.

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One of my regrets so far is that I haven’t been regularly updating here. I planned this space to be a log of my time in college so I would remember as much as possible. I have a terrible memory. So far, it hasn’t happened, and that’s a goal I will have in the coming months. 

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It’s Almost That Time

If you’re anything like me (and still in school), your “New Year, New Me” resolutions don’t happen on January 1st. They happen right about now – when school is about to be back in session. So, in the holiday spirit, I’ve decided to share with you all my resolutions and “new year feels.”

RESOLUTIONS:

  1. Keep up with color-coding my planner
  2. Not procrastinate on papers (that always bit me in the ass)
  3. Be pre-emptive about things like laundry – nothing is worse than being stuck one day with nothing to wear because you forgot to do laundry the day before
  4. Post on this blog weekly or as often as cool things happen (but no less)!
  5. Keep rotating weekly to-do lists with short term and long term goals to keep me goal oriented!

Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, it’s time to discuss my new year feels. As you know, I am just about to begin my sophomore year of college at Marywood University. In exactly one week I will hopefully be asleep in my bed in my dorm room!

suitcase most likely will not close if we're being honest with each other here

suitcase most likely will not close if we’re being honest with each other here

I have begun the painful and confusing journey of packing my clothing… I am never quite sure what to bring and what to leave behind. In the back, you can see the box in which I am packing my school supplies (something I’ve been really into this year for some reason).

In other news, I will be receiving my Canon EOS Rebel t3i in the mail tomorrow, and will be able to take absolutely stellar pics of my dorm and my life, and if you would be interested in seeing maybe a photo series of something, let me know in the comments!!! I’ll do one of my move-in day!

All Moved In

Immaculata Hall is nothing like what I would have imagined. I have seen pictures, but I don’t think anything fully prepared me for how ratty the rooms were. They have carpet, and walls, which is good I guess, but for what I’m paying…. sheesh. The two worst parts of the room are the door that bangs around even when it’s closed and deadbolted and the weird temperature thing that is constantly hissing at me. I don’t know how I’m going to fall asleep, but I better do it before 11pm so I can get a good night’s rest before my 4 and a half hour journey to Philadelphia tomorrow morning at 5am.

Currently I’m laying on my newly made bed that’s really hard and moves a lot to binge watch Supernatural until when it gets dark, and then I’ll switch over to House M.D., a little less exciting so I don’t lay awake thinking about dragons and soulless Sam.

Tomorrow is the day classes begin, so I think that’s when we’ll start our new blogs for the duration of the next six weeks. I’ll be sure to post the link here in case anyone wants to check out what I’m up to!

IRELAND TRIP

Well, the time is almost upon us – I leave home to go back to Marywood for summer classes in 7 short days, and I’m actually kind of scared. I’m taking two classes, Multimedia Composition & Storytelling and Travel Writing. Both require a ton of reading/work. However, I just finished reading the 17 page syllabus for the communications class, and the major projects we need to turn out are INTERNET RELATED and I’m really stoked! I’m also nervous, because there is a lot of work to be done, but I’m excited for the opportunities and the actual trip itself. We move in to Immaculata Hall on the 13th of this month and begin classes the next day.

We are all required to run our own blogs, so I’ll post the link here if anyone reads this and is interested in my adventures overseas. There will be stories, video blogs, photos, and more random tidbits! Hope to have you guys along for the journey.

DECLARED MAJOR!!!

I’m pretty damn excited! I met with the director of the Social Work program today who handled the paperwork and double checked the classes I signed up for next semester – they’re all good, so I’m on track. That means I can graduate in another 4 years with a master’s degree, how cool is that? The time will fly by, and I only have two more semesters of gen eds before it’s all social work, all the time. Hopefully more cool stuff to come!

New Computer Adventures

I’ve had many a computer in my day. It’s not that I’m picky, I just haven’t found the setup that works for me, you know? I first came to school armed with an ancient Mac desktop and the laptop I’m typing on now, an Asus 15″ that’s seen better days. After being shuffled around to 2 different dorm rooms, I decided that the stationary desktop just wasn’t working – it was too slow, and took up too much desk space. Home it went! Now all I had was my somewhat monstrous laptop, but ironically it’s the closest I’ve gotten to finding the right computing style for me. I’ve noticed that I have a ton of electronics around me, and I’m usually staring at some sort of screen for 90% of my day – better try and condense that number down, and make those hours less frustrating.

Now my dad (an angel) told me that he would buy me a new one, with everything I wanted and needed for school. I took a leap, and asked for a MacBook Pro, 13″. After some deliberation, dad said that he thinks he can buy it for me! That’s awesome news, because if this all happens according to plan I’ll have a computer that I can carry with me for the rest of college and grad school, and maybe even longer!

Hauntings in Scranton

Maybe it’s my new habit of binging on Supernatural before bed, but I’ve been recently feeling like many haunted places have been coming to my attention. Scranton isn’t a new town, so it’s natural that there will be some local lore and legend, but I have been to some places that have freaked me out. For one, there’s a pub a few miles from campus called Andy Gavin’s, and it’s rumored that there is a ghost there named George who supposedly moves dishes around and silly things like that. However, when I went there for dinner with my dad, we stumbled upon the coldest of cold spots – it sent major chills down my spine, and lasted for almost 45 minutes!! Second would have to be my class trip to the Clarks Summit State Hospital, where we stayed for over 2 hours. It was majorly strange to me, and although I never encountered anything that I could definitively call supernatural, I got a weird vibe from the place.

Feeling Good!

This week has been a turnaround of sorts for me. After slacking off for quite a while, I got my act together last night and majorly cleaned my room. I always consider that to be the first step in anything you can do — if you don’t have a clean room, you can’t have a clean life. So I picked up everything off the floor, threw out 3 bags of trash (3 whole bags!), and wiped out my fridge, sink, and desk.

I woke up today with a better perspective, and promised myself I’d buckle down. After dragging myself to church (I made a commitment, I have to keep it) and having brunch with some friends, I came back to my nice clean room to do some work. I printed out the 20 page scholarly article on the zoot-suit riots in LA, and got reading. An hour later, it was done, with highlighting and notes in the margins so I could formulate some awesome discussion questions for class. Then, I picked up my “textbook” — it’s basically some guy’s dissertation — and began reading the huge chunk that was assigned for tomorrow.

Although I’m still not completely done, I only have 16 pages left. I plan on getting up well before it’s time for class tomorrow to finish it and write up my discussion questions. Progress! It is possible, my friends. I may be in another rut soon, but I can always look back at this post and remind myself of how a few easy changes can bring about a positive attitude.

2nd Week Update

It’s exactly 2 weeks since I’ve been back at classes. The work load has been surprisingly light – only 1 page of written homework, but hundreds of pages of reading. Especially in my Youth Revolt class, the professor openly admits that she regularly gets complaints from her students about the crazy assignments. Today, 130 total pages of reading was due, and it’s not easy stuff.

We’ve been experiencing what’s called the “Polar Vortex”… it’s crazy!! High temp today was 9 degrees, with lows tonight of around -11. Good ol’ Marywood apparently thinks it’s cool to have windows in dorms that have leaks, so I’m stuck basically sucking all of the heating out the window.

I have discovered Law and Order: SVU. I’ve been watching nonstop, and today I saw a commercial for the newest episode on ABC. I wish I had a TV up here on campus, that’d be cool. I could watch the shows I want when I actually want to, instead of having to watch them online the day after.

 

Winter Break and Starting the New Semester

Well, my first semester is over, and I’ve mostly survived my first break back home for long periods of time. Things are pretty different, as you’d imagine. I had grown accustomed to having free reign over my surroundings and not having adults questioning me. I’m not used to having to ask my dad if I can go somewhere, and for the most part he’s been pretty good about not asking me those types of questions.

I’ve been doing lots of work on my old room – since I’m not living there full time anymore, I’ve begun to rifle through my life’s worth of “stuff” that I’ve accumulated into the trash, transport to Goodwill, or a box (destination: attic).  The end result will hopefully be a nice, functioning, welcoming guest bedroom. That requires some extra work, like painting. The room currently is pink and blue/green. Not good colors for a guest bedroom. Also, the carpet is covered in makeup and stains from my adventurous younger days. However, this requires a lot of work.

This Christmas, I asked for a Kindle. In addition to using it for playing games and watching Netflix, I can use it to order digital copies of my textbooks so it’s much lighter to go to class. I can just chuck it into my bag and have a way to take notes and a textbook all in one! Unfortunately, I think I was given the smaller version with less storage, but we’ll see what technology magic I can work to make it the most useful. I’m really grateful, as this was gifted by my aunt, younger brother, and my dad’s best friend!

It’s time to order more textbooks, and gather up some spring clothing to take back to school with me. Scranton is rather chilly, though, so there will be coat and glove weather for a while to come.