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Junior Year Fall Update

Well, things have certainly changed since I last updated this blog; I believe it was in sophomore year. I am wrapping up the Fall 2015 semester, and would like to just share a few things I’ve learned.

This semester, I took:

  • Junior Field
  • Advanced Elementary Spanish
  • Introduction to Sociology
  • Intergenerational Justice
  • Quantitative Research in Social Work
  • Human Behavior and the Social Environment

I love most of my classes. I have learned a lot this semester. But I have also come to understand a lot about the world surrounding me, and that people don’t and won’t always live up to my exceedingly high expectations of them. This is a good and a bad thing. For one, I have this new understanding of people, and as I am going into a “people field,” this will help inform me on my journey. On the other hand, I find myself changing in ways I swore I wouldn’t. I realize that I now expect less of people. This saddens me, because my sense of empathy and care for others (even complete strangers) is a personal value that I hold of the utmost importance. I swore I wouldn’t change this, and yet I am finding that more and more often I need to make a conscious choice between caring for others and caring for myself.

Through counseling, meditation, and internal reflection, I have also learned about myself and my response to external forces in my life. I am beginning to understand the role procrastination (ugh) has played in my education and academic performance, and the best ways to combat that. I’m procrastinating many things by writing this right now, but I realize that if I don’t express my feelings in some way that I will lose focus later on, and in turn, lose my ability to perform as well as I can. Prior to this year, I didn’t understand the “why” behind my procrastination and saw it as a personal fault. Now, I can celebrate that I’m a creative being with so many ideas and thoughts in my brain. I no longer have an intense desire to do destructive things (I’ll leave it at that). I have realized how much I offer to the world, and how much of an impact I can have on others.

love sweater

This semester has been the hardest semester. I’m 5/8 through my undergraduate degree and now that we have all been formally admitted into the Social Work program, we’re getting smacked in the face with theory and data analysis. Like I said before, I’m learning so much. I’m watching my friends grow and blossom into super-human world-changers and I’m making lifelong friendships that I value even now.

I can respect myself for my feelings and my intentions, and I love that! I know that if I want to do something, it’s for a good reason. Maybe this is what’s it’s like to be an adult? Many people my age believe that being an adult means independence, but I think it means being able to admit to yourself that you don’t know everything and that your friends and family are there to support you on your journey of not-knowing.

I have enjoyed the process of learning to love myself first. It’s pretty awesome, I highly recommend it to everyone! I surround myself with things and people that I love, and I have been taking time to myself to plan for my future. This can be scary. But I have always had thoughts floating around about what I want in my life, but I haven’t been able to decide because I (like everyone) am a multifaceted being. I am not just one thing. I am many great things, and to truly be happy I need to honor all parts of my being.

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One of my regrets so far is that I haven’t been regularly updating here. I planned this space to be a log of my time in college so I would remember as much as possible. I have a terrible memory. So far, it hasn’t happened, and that’s a goal I will have in the coming months. 

Fall 2014 Semester!

All moved in! Mostly unpacked…. minus my suitcase…

it's only a little full!

it’s only a little full!

Today was the first day of classes, and I only had one, 18th Century British Literature from noon to 1 PM, so now I have a ton of time to relax. I had some errands to run, which I did right after class, and got accepted to work as a tutor for the Fall semester! I’m super excited to help out people who were in the same boat as me last year.

Anyway, enjoy some pictures of my half of my dorm room! I won’t be posting pictures of my whole room setup until I ask my roommate if it’s okay.

view from my doorway

view from my doorway

IRELAND TRIP

Well, the time is almost upon us – I leave home to go back to Marywood for summer classes in 7 short days, and I’m actually kind of scared. I’m taking two classes, Multimedia Composition & Storytelling and Travel Writing. Both require a ton of reading/work. However, I just finished reading the 17 page syllabus for the communications class, and the major projects we need to turn out are INTERNET RELATED and I’m really stoked! I’m also nervous, because there is a lot of work to be done, but I’m excited for the opportunities and the actual trip itself. We move in to Immaculata Hall on the 13th of this month and begin classes the next day.

We are all required to run our own blogs, so I’ll post the link here if anyone reads this and is interested in my adventures overseas. There will be stories, video blogs, photos, and more random tidbits! Hope to have you guys along for the journey.

DECLARED MAJOR!!!

I’m pretty damn excited! I met with the director of the Social Work program today who handled the paperwork and double checked the classes I signed up for next semester – they’re all good, so I’m on track. That means I can graduate in another 4 years with a master’s degree, how cool is that? The time will fly by, and I only have two more semesters of gen eds before it’s all social work, all the time. Hopefully more cool stuff to come!

New Computer Adventures

I’ve had many a computer in my day. It’s not that I’m picky, I just haven’t found the setup that works for me, you know? I first came to school armed with an ancient Mac desktop and the laptop I’m typing on now, an Asus 15″ that’s seen better days. After being shuffled around to 2 different dorm rooms, I decided that the stationary desktop just wasn’t working – it was too slow, and took up too much desk space. Home it went! Now all I had was my somewhat monstrous laptop, but ironically it’s the closest I’ve gotten to finding the right computing style for me. I’ve noticed that I have a ton of electronics around me, and I’m usually staring at some sort of screen for 90% of my day – better try and condense that number down, and make those hours less frustrating.

Now my dad (an angel) told me that he would buy me a new one, with everything I wanted and needed for school. I took a leap, and asked for a MacBook Pro, 13″. After some deliberation, dad said that he thinks he can buy it for me! That’s awesome news, because if this all happens according to plan I’ll have a computer that I can carry with me for the rest of college and grad school, and maybe even longer!

Feeling Good!

This week has been a turnaround of sorts for me. After slacking off for quite a while, I got my act together last night and majorly cleaned my room. I always consider that to be the first step in anything you can do — if you don’t have a clean room, you can’t have a clean life. So I picked up everything off the floor, threw out 3 bags of trash (3 whole bags!), and wiped out my fridge, sink, and desk.

I woke up today with a better perspective, and promised myself I’d buckle down. After dragging myself to church (I made a commitment, I have to keep it) and having brunch with some friends, I came back to my nice clean room to do some work. I printed out the 20 page scholarly article on the zoot-suit riots in LA, and got reading. An hour later, it was done, with highlighting and notes in the margins so I could formulate some awesome discussion questions for class. Then, I picked up my “textbook” — it’s basically some guy’s dissertation — and began reading the huge chunk that was assigned for tomorrow.

Although I’m still not completely done, I only have 16 pages left. I plan on getting up well before it’s time for class tomorrow to finish it and write up my discussion questions. Progress! It is possible, my friends. I may be in another rut soon, but I can always look back at this post and remind myself of how a few easy changes can bring about a positive attitude.

2nd Week Update

It’s exactly 2 weeks since I’ve been back at classes. The work load has been surprisingly light – only 1 page of written homework, but hundreds of pages of reading. Especially in my Youth Revolt class, the professor openly admits that she regularly gets complaints from her students about the crazy assignments. Today, 130 total pages of reading was due, and it’s not easy stuff.

We’ve been experiencing what’s called the “Polar Vortex”… it’s crazy!! High temp today was 9 degrees, with lows tonight of around -11. Good ol’ Marywood apparently thinks it’s cool to have windows in dorms that have leaks, so I’m stuck basically sucking all of the heating out the window.

I have discovered Law and Order: SVU. I’ve been watching nonstop, and today I saw a commercial for the newest episode on ABC. I wish I had a TV up here on campus, that’d be cool. I could watch the shows I want when I actually want to, instead of having to watch them online the day after.

 

Winter Break and Starting the New Semester

Well, my first semester is over, and I’ve mostly survived my first break back home for long periods of time. Things are pretty different, as you’d imagine. I had grown accustomed to having free reign over my surroundings and not having adults questioning me. I’m not used to having to ask my dad if I can go somewhere, and for the most part he’s been pretty good about not asking me those types of questions.

I’ve been doing lots of work on my old room – since I’m not living there full time anymore, I’ve begun to rifle through my life’s worth of “stuff” that I’ve accumulated into the trash, transport to Goodwill, or a box (destination: attic).  The end result will hopefully be a nice, functioning, welcoming guest bedroom. That requires some extra work, like painting. The room currently is pink and blue/green. Not good colors for a guest bedroom. Also, the carpet is covered in makeup and stains from my adventurous younger days. However, this requires a lot of work.

This Christmas, I asked for a Kindle. In addition to using it for playing games and watching Netflix, I can use it to order digital copies of my textbooks so it’s much lighter to go to class. I can just chuck it into my bag and have a way to take notes and a textbook all in one! Unfortunately, I think I was given the smaller version with less storage, but we’ll see what technology magic I can work to make it the most useful. I’m really grateful, as this was gifted by my aunt, younger brother, and my dad’s best friend!

It’s time to order more textbooks, and gather up some spring clothing to take back to school with me. Scranton is rather chilly, though, so there will be coat and glove weather for a while to come.

End of the First Semester Recollections

Well, it’s over! My first semester in college! I’m typing this from a 50 degree room in my dad’s house anxiously awaiting grades to come out (in a few minutes/hours)! I’m trying to enjoy Love Actually, but I’m not finding it all that interesting. If we’re talking feel good girl movies, I’d much rather go with Eat, Pray, Love. There’s no shame in admitting that. Okay, maybe a little.

Considering that I can’t really type because my fingers are frozen blocks of ice, I suppose I’ll be updating you later tonight once I pick up my brother from his flight back from Japan!

First 3 Weeks!

Wow, I thought I’d have time to do stuff! Boy, was I wrong. The only reason this is getting typed right now is because I left my English book in my friend’s dorm and can’t do my homework in it. It’s also 1:30am. I barely have any time to do ANYTHING. That includes watching my favorite beauty gurus on YouTube, painting my nails, shopping, listening to music, cleaning, going on facebook, and definitely not posting on a blog that no one reads.

Quite a lot has happened since I got here, including a fight between my roommates and I (yes, already!), coming home at 1am and not having anyone look at you strangely, took my first few college quizzes, wrote a few papers, read A LOT, broke A LOT of stuff, smoked A LOT of cigarettes, and still haven’t gone to bed before 1am ever.

It’s SO DIFFICULT living with 3 other girls. We all came from very different places and backgrounds, so we have a lot to learn from each other and we all have our own problems to deal with. I wish that I could just be acquaintances with my roommates, and that sounds awful, but it would be better than where we are now: I’m shy, and they’re condescending. J suggested that I complete roommate mediationx (a fancy term for arguing it out with your roommates with the RA there), but I’m just not comfortable doing that just yet. I don’t want to room with them anymore, but as long as I make my own friends it won’t be that bad, right?

Unfortunately, since I don’t have a major, I don’t really have that many good friends yet. I made friends with a lovely girl named Aria who lives in the quad right next to us with a girl named Polina, but I don’t want to be solely in her room and overwhelm her or seem like I’m clingy. I can go to Jess’s, but she’s all the way in Madonna and I don’t always want to walk all the way down there when I need to talk to her face to face (as much as I love her to death).

 

Well, that’s it for now because I have a lot of stuff to do like sleep and never wake up again. That would be heavenly. As it is, I’m only going to get 6 hours of sleep.

~L