Category Archives: Random

These posts don’t have a specific theme, they’re just out there for your enjoyment, or possibly my enjoyment.

Junior Year Fall Update

Well, things have certainly changed since I last updated this blog; I believe it was in sophomore year. I am wrapping up the Fall 2015 semester, and would like to just share a few things I’ve learned.

This semester, I took:

  • Junior Field
  • Advanced Elementary Spanish
  • Introduction to Sociology
  • Intergenerational Justice
  • Quantitative Research in Social Work
  • Human Behavior and the Social Environment

I love most of my classes. I have learned a lot this semester. But I have also come to understand a lot about the world surrounding me, and that people don’t and won’t always live up to my exceedingly high expectations of them. This is a good and a bad thing. For one, I have this new understanding of people, and as I am going into a “people field,” this will help inform me on my journey. On the other hand, I find myself changing in ways I swore I wouldn’t. I realize that I now expect less of people. This saddens me, because my sense of empathy and care for others (even complete strangers) is a personal value that I hold of the utmost importance. I swore I wouldn’t change this, and yet I am finding that more and more often I need to make a conscious choice between caring for others and caring for myself.

Through counseling, meditation, and internal reflection, I have also learned about myself and my response to external forces in my life. I am beginning to understand the role procrastination (ugh) has played in my education and academic performance, and the best ways to combat that. I’m procrastinating many things by writing this right now, but I realize that if I don’t express my feelings in some way that I will lose focus later on, and in turn, lose my ability to perform as well as I can. Prior to this year, I didn’t understand the “why” behind my procrastination and saw it as a personal fault. Now, I can celebrate that I’m a creative being with so many ideas and thoughts in my brain. I no longer have an intense desire to do destructive things (I’ll leave it at that). I have realized how much I offer to the world, and how much of an impact I can have on others.

love sweater

This semester has been the hardest semester. I’m 5/8 through my undergraduate degree and now that we have all been formally admitted into the Social Work program, we’re getting smacked in the face with theory and data analysis. Like I said before, I’m learning so much. I’m watching my friends grow and blossom into super-human world-changers and I’m making lifelong friendships that I value even now.

I can respect myself for my feelings and my intentions, and I love that! I know that if I want to do something, it’s for a good reason. Maybe this is what’s it’s like to be an adult? Many people my age believe that being an adult means independence, but I think it means being able to admit to yourself that you don’t know everything and that your friends and family are there to support you on your journey of not-knowing.

I have enjoyed the process of learning to love myself first. It’s pretty awesome, I highly recommend it to everyone! I surround myself with things and people that I love, and I have been taking time to myself to plan for my future. This can be scary. But I have always had thoughts floating around about what I want in my life, but I haven’t been able to decide because I (like everyone) am a multifaceted being. I am not just one thing. I am many great things, and to truly be happy I need to honor all parts of my being.

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One of my regrets so far is that I haven’t been regularly updating here. I planned this space to be a log of my time in college so I would remember as much as possible. I have a terrible memory. So far, it hasn’t happened, and that’s a goal I will have in the coming months. 

Settling In

As I am writing this, my roommate is listening to Nicki Minaj on her bed from her laptop. We’re both wrapped up in blankets with the AC blasting. Her candle warmer is spreading the scent of chai around our little plaster room, and the string of light bulbs I stretched around the room are shining brightly and warmly.

I am watching a documentary about modeling in Russia on Netflix and listening to my playlist for autumn desperately hoping for the temperatures to drop.

This summer when I was in Ireland, I met a 21 year old guy named Eric and his brothers Robert and Romke. Eric and one of my friends ended up falling for each other and starting a relationship! This Friday I am going with her to pick him up from the airport so he can begin his first trip to America!!!

We switched around the layout of the room, pics will come soon!

It’s Almost That Time

If you’re anything like me (and still in school), your “New Year, New Me” resolutions don’t happen on January 1st. They happen right about now – when school is about to be back in session. So, in the holiday spirit, I’ve decided to share with you all my resolutions and “new year feels.”

RESOLUTIONS:

  1. Keep up with color-coding my planner
  2. Not procrastinate on papers (that always bit me in the ass)
  3. Be pre-emptive about things like laundry – nothing is worse than being stuck one day with nothing to wear because you forgot to do laundry the day before
  4. Post on this blog weekly or as often as cool things happen (but no less)!
  5. Keep rotating weekly to-do lists with short term and long term goals to keep me goal oriented!

Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, it’s time to discuss my new year feels. As you know, I am just about to begin my sophomore year of college at Marywood University. In exactly one week I will hopefully be asleep in my bed in my dorm room!

suitcase most likely will not close if we're being honest with each other here

suitcase most likely will not close if we’re being honest with each other here

I have begun the painful and confusing journey of packing my clothing… I am never quite sure what to bring and what to leave behind. In the back, you can see the box in which I am packing my school supplies (something I’ve been really into this year for some reason).

In other news, I will be receiving my Canon EOS Rebel t3i in the mail tomorrow, and will be able to take absolutely stellar pics of my dorm and my life, and if you would be interested in seeing maybe a photo series of something, let me know in the comments!!! I’ll do one of my move-in day!

Finally Graduated!!

I’ve waited for this since I can remember. Now that I’m actually graduated, of course it doesn’t feel any different. However, I can say that since I’m graduated, I’ve felt more nostalgic, and I’ve also stopped thinking about high school as much and am focusing on college so much more.

I purposefully waited a few days to post about graduation in case I reached some huge epiphany, but so far there’s been nothing. I graduated on Monday, picked up my diploma and went serial shopping on Tuesday, and celebrated with some friends and teachers on Wednesday. Today is Thursday, and the first day I have actually had nothing at all to do. It’s wonderful. I do love spending time with family and friends, but now I have an opportunity to catch up on some shows, surf the internet, work out, and basically veg all day. Hope you all are doing well!

Graduation Feels

I graduate high school in 11 days. For me, this is a really easy and difficult thing to grasp at the same time. It’s easy because no one wants to deal with administrative bullshit any more than they absolutely have to, and that is the reality of high school, after all. It’s difficult because college is an entirely different world – one that I know next to nothing about. I know the ins and outs of high school. I know how to not get in trouble for something, how to get away with not doing anything, and how to get in with the teachers so they are on your side when things don’t go your way. Now that I’m starting in a completely different place, I’m scared. I know I’ll actually have to do work, but I also feel that it’s not as bad as everyone says it is or no one would really go, right? I don’t know, I could be completely wrong about that. The kids from my home district graduated last night, and there were lots of teary-eyed facebook statuses and tweets along with pictures that looked like they could have been in a magazine called “How To Have The Perfect Life”.

Right now, as I’m writing this, I’m eating pasta at home. I should be in fifth period, but I have an earache and don’t feel like going in to school right now. So I’m not. I feel like this is something that can’t happen in college. Well, we shall see, won’t we?

Why I’ve decided to make this blog:

Plain and simple, the reason I decided to start this blog is because I would have loved to read something like this during my college process. I hope to post things that describe my experiences, and talk about my successes and failures. Also, things that everyone actually wants to read about, like the parties and the socializing. I will be completely honest.

I’m going to start off by saying that I am in no way an expert on anything. This is my first time through college, so you’re experiencing everything along with me! That being said, enjoy this journey with me – at least I’m pretty sure I’ll enjoy it.